A Woman Who Has Met Her Shadow Is The Most Powerful Woman In the World.

‘A woman who has met her shadow is the most powerful woman in the world’

I stopped dead in my tracks and I cried, I mean I cried. There was no stopping the tears, they were ready to flow and be released. I didn’t stop them, I didn’t judge them, I just let them flow. The long overdue rivers of tears purposefully made their way down my face, caressing my skin in a gentle reminder of who I no longer am, and who I am BEcoming. As each tear fell to the ground, a new awareness of space filled my BEing. A lightness crept in, a peace, a nurturing feeling of ‘Yes sweet soul, You are powerful’.

I sat with this gentle lightness, allowing it to permeate every pore, every cell, every particle of who I BE and I gave thanks to the universe for this beautiful moment of awareness.

My energy had shifted!

Talk about divine timing, it certainly was one of those moments when this statement dropped into my world because I have been working with my shadow for a month or so now in a dance of gentle, yet purposeful integration, release, acknowledgment, and honouring, and this was a reminder to keep going.

I have known about shadow work for a long time, yet I resisted it as I saw my shadow as something that was wrong in me, something to be ashamed of, like it was a dirty secret that I had to hide. I believed that my jealousy, anger, envy etc were all a wrongness of who I should be rather than seeing them as part of me. I hid them, buried them, supressed them, refused to acknowledge they existed and wouldn’t deal with them when they came to the surface begging for release.

It has been this past 6 months, that I have felt their rising, felt the push to work with them, to be with them, to listen to their messages, to honour them and allow them to be part of the beautiful being that I BE. I had a choice to make.

So, I began the journey inwards, to the dark night of my soul, and I am not going to lie it has been painful. There have been tears, more tears, denial, anger and so much judgement, yet the universe is constantly sending me signs to remind me that I am on the right path, that now is the time, and I am powerful.

I have journaled, worked with my essential oils, have spent time in nature, and I have been working with a new deck of oracle cards called ‘Lantern’ Oracle by Angelina Mirabito PhD that magically appeared in my peripheral view a month ago while I was in a gift shop. I could hear a gentle voice calling me and I was drawn to a bookshelf filled with oracle cards. I didn’t need any oracle cards, wasn’t looking for any oracle cards, yet here I was standing in front of a bookshelf filled with them and then I saw them. They were glowing, radiating an energy that was bewitching, I couldn’t take my eyes off them, and I knew they were coming home with me. What I didn’t know at the time was they are ‘shadow work’ oracle cards. The universe spoke loud and clear that day.

 I go forward knowing that in there will be discomfort, there will be tears and there will be change!

 Shadows are parts of us that we have repressed, hidden, and made ‘wrong’ about us and yet they have so much to gift us if we are willing to be with them no matter the discomfort we feel. They are part of us, part of who we are and yet we judge them instead of working with them to allow them to share their messages, to seek the help they need and to release them with an abundance of love and kindness. They are the parts of us that are truly crying out for change, for love and understanding and for forgiveness and release and the more we suppress them, the more they will continue to show up in our life through other people, situations, or events until we have to acknowledge them and work with them.

I have become aware during this darkness of winter of the jealousy that has been sitting below the surface of my soul, often rearing itself when others celebrate something, especially around relationships and houses. I saw my skin change colour, felt the blood rush to my face and often mentally said the words ‘it’s not fair’ or something along those lines. I denied that it was jealousy, but wholly heck, it sure was. Even writing this is making my body squirm a little bit.

Using journaling, prayer, ritual, working with the Divine Mother and Mother Earth along with the oracle cards, I have heard the beautiful message that jealousy was waiting for so long to share, and I am no longer seeing it in the same way. I have released the hard, it’s not fair jealousy with love and compassion and now see those pangs of energy for what they were in the beginning, the excitement, and the energy to move forward towards my dreams and goals and to celebrate the wins of others.  As I share the wins and celebrate with others, it not only enhances the energy of the Divine Mother and the universe but it vibrationally assists in the manifestation and actualisation of my dreams and desires.

This journey is lifelong, it will evolve and change over the years and no doubt challenge me in ways that are uncomfortable, yet I invite this in. I call with love to my shadows to share their messages with me, to open me to greater awareness of my beauty, my wisdom, and my BEing. I hold them in my energy with a loving embrace and nurture them with the care they deserve, and I release them into the loving arms of the Divine Mother.